Are you tired? Frustrated? Want to quit? Ready to resign your motherhood post?
Take a breath. You are a good mom who's been on tilt for awhile. But within a short time, by tweaking a few details and regaining your rhythm of life (time with the kids, time alone with God, time alone with your husband, time with friends) you'll find the inner peace you need to enjoy the rambunctious noise without anger, and the confidence to set reasonable boundaries for both your kids and yourself so that future anger is preempted most of the time, and you'll become transformed from an already good, solid mom to an amazingly great mom -- and still have an adult life with a mind in use.
As you lean on God's strength, you have the inner strength and outer stamina to do it. You can do it! A lot of it will be designing a daily routine and schedule that you can count on most of the time. That way you can deliberately phase in and out of the loud times and the quiet times with your kids (as they adapt to your new style). You'll identify what refreshes you emotionally and "bathe" in that for a little while each day (quiet worship time, or listening to music, or reading, or going to the YMCA, etc) = recharging your emotional batteries to play hard with your darlling kids .... those reflections of YOU who will pick out your nursing home one day .....
Don't you just love it!?
I wish we could have had more children. We love our two adult children so much now. I also sometimes miss the other two who would be in high school now.
I say this to encourage you to persevere. The reward awaits at the other end of life, and that joy will last far longer than your present pain.
It will work out. Your kids are resilient. One day you will smile back at all the tears......
You ARE going to make it!
